Hmmm... well how to update. Lets see. I am getting a raise at Finish Line. I am getting, well, Courtney asked me to start closing and said that there are only a few people she trusts enough and asks to close. So, all and all work is going well. Except... I have no life. I am taking 17 hours this semester, and I will still be working about forty hours. I dont know how I am going to make it without dying or becoming suicidal. Here I am telling other people to take advantage of being young and talking about how it only happens once, and I am struggling just to pay for books. I hate the fact that it is so easy for some people. I hate that I am so driven. I wish I would just give up. Oh well... what can I say.

I keep running into Jehramy, which is odd, so finally tonight I gave him my number and he Jake and I are going to hang out, like old times, yet very much not like old times. The three of us used to be pretty good friends, and well... more, but you know. I think I would have a good time and I am due for some much needed fun.

So, a random note: I wish that things werent like they are. I miss the way it used to be. I think about how cool we were and how much I trusted you and it breaks my heart because I dont have anyone I trust so much anymore. Not like I trusted you, with real secrets and such. But I am so pissed that you pretended to want to be good and I tried to make it right and you were unwilling. I am mad that I changed my schedule so I a could have opportunities to spend some time hanging out with you. I still think you are awesome and I am not particular about that night, and my feelings arent hurt. I just think it was the last straw and I expected more. So I guess the ball is in your court. Check.

KILLERS CONCERT IS ON SATURDAY AND IT WILL SPIN MY TOP